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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:20

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But, we were locked up after school.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And i lived it daily.

Is there an MBTI personality that is more or less likely to handle stress?

She married twice! .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

When she asked me how she looked .

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We all went to grammer schools

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

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As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

He resisted the act ,that day.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why is it difficult to get a job?

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Why did i forgive my father ?

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His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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My life is so biszare .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Comes on , in middle age.

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I don,t even have a pension.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I never cut or harmed myself..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

This is how, and why children get BPD.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She loved him until the end.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Was to survive, this bastard.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

My family never makes their pension either.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

What did i know ?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

One cannot live in the past .

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

All the time i was locked up.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Im still living with it.

Ive learnt so much.

This is soul school!.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I was very sick at this time too.

So whats the point in blame.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I said to her

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But ive been too sick for many years..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Especially a lifetime of it.

So, i spoilt her more .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He knew the spot.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She was in good health!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But it wasn’t much.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I think the readers, may guess!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We were not on the streets..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I was 9 years of age.

I will be 64.

Who then, do I blame.?

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

It was going to be , some day.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She wouldn,t have been !

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She found it foreign!.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I waited trembling.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Put me off passion for life!!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I was seconnd youngest,

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I write beautiful poetry .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I couldn’t, believe it.

I could never make a relationship work though!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Would this be the day?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was scared of men, in general

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.